„Do your practice and all is coming.“ – Sri K Patthabi Jois
It is rather funny to think I used to loathe going to yoga. I thought that this is just for boring people and not a physically demanding practice… As I did Figure Skating for 14 years on a professional level, I was naturally pre-conditioned to develop a perfectionist mindset. You learn to deal with competition, comparison, jealousy and sometimes even hate. Practicing 6-7 days a week required a lot of dedication and passion but also willpower to get through phases of disappointment and injury. Figure Skating was one of the main parts of my life and when I ended my career I felt literally lost and fell into a deep phase of sadness or disorientation.
Thinking back to when I first tried yoga, I remember feeling uncomfortable in more ways than one. I couldn’t handle the silence and the loud breathing – it made me bust out into laughter, which was embarrassing! Downward-Facing Dog felt all sorts of wrong, and the pace was way too slow for my taste.
I never would have guessed my life would flip a switch, and yoga would become a huge pillar in my life. I certainly never expected I’d be blogging about it today.
The Good, The Bad & the Transformational
Yoga came into my life at a time of uttermost vulnerability. I was getting over an eating disorder I had developed by the last years through figure skating and I was dealing with the negative feelings that lingered from it. Somehow, I was at a standstill. I tried different things (including loads of different professional treatment for it)… But nothing seemed to help me in the long run.
But a about three years ago I started with Yoga at University. One day of yoga a week turned into three which turned into a passion. I felt the transformation and was no longer able to live the life I was. I had to go away, change scenery and get a new perspective on things. So I booked a Teacher Training course in Bali. My passion was ignited, and I saw such a transformation in my physical self as much as my mental state of mind. Yoga was no longer a workout to me – it was a way of living. My yoga practice began to embody the life I never knew I had waiting for me.
Working Through the Awkward
When you’re new to yoga, the poses can feel awkward. You might feel like you’re doing it wrong, but that’s just because your body isn’t used to it yet. I know I felt awkward (and definitely looked it) because I knew for a fact my form wasn’t correct. You know what, though? THAT’S OKAY.
There’s a learning curve, and if you stick with it you’ll see how it transforms you. The day you nail your first headstand will be a day you’ll always remember. It feels incredible to measure your own progress and self-growth through your yoga practice.
Come As You Are
Yoga is not about how flexible you are. It isn’t about how well you can balance while holding yourself upside down on one arm. Yoga IS a personal journey – only you know how far you have come and where you are headed. How do you feel on the inside? If you feel inspired, enlightened and reborn after an invigorating yoga class and you feel empowered to finally make changes in your life, then that is what yoga is about. I highly recommend to watch this amazing and literally super inspirational Documentary! These women encouraged me so much to stand for what I believe 🙂
Where I Stand Today
Today, I am healthier than I’ve ever been – physically, mentally, and spiritually rooted. But nonetheless, I have still a far way to go. But it’s better to take smaller steps into the right direction and always keeping your goal in front of you. I run this blog, study at University a subject I’m super interested, teach Yoga now and than. I am in love with the people in my life, and I feel very lucky.
Therefore, I couldn’t be more grateful for my past, because without it, I wouldn’t have the passion instilled in me now. My experiences have shaped my way of thinking, and I truly believe everything happens for a reason.
I hope you like these kind of Yoga posts too? I might write more articles in the future, as I really feel to share more with you guys <3 By the way, more outfits will come in the next weeks (it’s difficult to shoot right now 🙁
„Through the practices of yoga, we discover that concern for the happiness and well being of others, including animals, must be an essential part of our own quest for happiness and well being. The fork can be a powerful weapon of mass destruction or a tool to create peace on Earth.“ – Sharon Gannon
„Learn to let go. That is the key to happiness.“The Buddha